A big mistake I made when I was struggling with some demons was comparing myself to other firefighters, medics, emergency room staff and cops.
I thought if those people can suck it up, why can’t I?
Should have been comparing myself with people who are not immersed in the worst. Normal people don’t deal with death, depression, hopelessness, rage, despair, abuse and carnage on a steady basis.
They just don’t.
“Normal” people have not developed the skills necessary to fool the rest of the world into thinking that everything is okay.